The decisions she once made, were now blurry.
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed.
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game?
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort.
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be.
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping.
On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers.
I remember each of you who once said they love me
I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me
I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been?
Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own!
Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore?
Do you not remember me anymore?
Do you care for me ? Do you love me?
Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun.
I know it’s hard, I know you are not understanding anything which is going on around you and you feel like your world is shaking and breaking!
But sweetheart, it’s not ! Your world is just getting better and stronger!
You are in the age where everyone around you seems wrong.
You will start questioning your family, your career choices , your friends and even the love of your life.
But it’s okay! It’s a natural human process
It’s a part of life!
This is meant to be this way! If not now then some years later every girl faces this and it’s okay!
Don’t break down;don’t cry;don’t change
Stick to your roots,be yourself and just trust life.
Few years later these sorrows won’t even be important to you!
In fact it would make you realise that if it wasn’t for these sorrows you wouldn’t have been happy
And so you should not stress about it now!
You know while you are trying to cope up and live; you are pushing everyone away! There are few selected people who are taking your shit and pulling you back but slowly the number is going to reduce and in the end it’s going to be you.
Remember to care first for yourself and all the people who pulled you back!
Because not everyone will understand your journey and the ones who do should always be a priority to you!
Dear girl, these are all the steps that lead you to your destination and there is nothing abnormal happening with you ! You are just experiencing life! And you should make it worth a while!
P.S. No matter what you should always wear the smile on your beautiful face!!
Suddenly,it was a question about me and my friendships!
About the friendships that stopped existing
About the friendships that were never meant to be but made me feel otherwise
They say as you grow up, you start loosing friends but does this growth give you strength for accepting the loss?
What went wrong?
Was it me?
Was it me who failed?
Was it me whose efforts didn’t seem enough?
Was it me who inspite of giving everything to them couldn’t take it far?
Too many failed friendships made me question myself!
And amidst the noises in my head my heart whispered they were never really your friends!
And then I realised it was purely my destiny and fortune that bestowed me with only the best people in my life and kept removing the toxic ones so that one day all my efforts would be reciprocated and my friendships would last forever!