The decisions she once made, were now blurry.
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed.
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game?
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort.
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be.
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping.
Suddenly,it was a question about me and my friendships!
About the friendships that stopped existing
About the friendships that were never meant to be but made me feel otherwise
They say as you grow up, you start loosing friends but does this growth give you strength for accepting the loss?
What went wrong?
Was it me?
Was it me who failed?
Was it me whose efforts didn’t seem enough?
Was it me who inspite of giving everything to them couldn’t take it far?
Too many failed friendships made me question myself!
And amidst the noises in my head my heart whispered they were never really your friends!
And then I realised it was purely my destiny and fortune that bestowed me with only the best people in my life and kept removing the toxic ones so that one day all my efforts would be reciprocated and my friendships would last forever!
“And she’s going to start the same old girl talk.”
“Girls face so much!”
“Wow she’s going to write about the perfect girl!”
No I am not going to talk about girl problems or how beautiful she is as a muse or what makes it difficult to be a girl.
I am simply going to talk about a girl who is “A Human” : Who is alive because of biological processes;who thinks with her brain and loves with her heart;who is capable of creating magic and who is here to experience a life.
A girl who is here to dream,love,hope and believe.
A girl that is you and a girl that is me.
We humans have our perceptions made up so strong that even a single word triggers millions of thoughts and questions in our minds.
Feminism,equality,justice are not merely values or ideologies but categories which have made strong homes in our minds.
And in this world of categories and perceptions the girl just keeps fitting in instead of truly being “A Girl!”