The decisions she once made, were now blurry.
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed.
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game?
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort.
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be.
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping.
On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers.
I remember each of you who once said they love me
I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me
I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been?
Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own!
Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore?
Do you not remember me anymore?
Do you care for me ? Do you love me?
Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun.
He asked me, “Do you believe in destiny?”
I smiled, “If it wasn’t destiny I would have never seen you!”
And I sigh to myself it was destiny who removed all those toxic people and made me the one I am today so that you could fall in love with me….
And I hug him tight and say,”But it’s your efforts baby, you earned it.”
And with pride he hugs me tighter as I thank god in my heart.
They were people who were supposed to be there forever;who promised to be a part of my wedding;who had planned vacations with me;who were going to cry hard when I died.
What happened to them?
Did I change?
Did they change?
What became so important that every dream had to shatter ??
That every friendship had to fade??
As I was having these thoughts and flashbacks the love of my life enters with my best friend to show me how much I mean to them with a photo book of our wedding pictures and tickets to my favourite destination.
The dreams still existed, the dreams were being fulfilled too but the people changed.
Those people who were supposed to be till the end were actually the people who had to make me reach here unfortunately without them.
People keep playing their roles and leave, don’t get your strings attached until it’s real.