The decisions she once made, were now blurry.
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed.
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game?
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort.
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be.
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping.
On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers.
I remember each of you who once said they love me
I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me
I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been?
Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own!
Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore?
Do you not remember me anymore?
Do you care for me ? Do you love me?
Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun.
Suddenly,it was a question about me and my friendships!
About the friendships that stopped existing
About the friendships that were never meant to be but made me feel otherwise
They say as you grow up, you start loosing friends but does this growth give you strength for accepting the loss?
What went wrong?
Was it me?
Was it me who failed?
Was it me whose efforts didn’t seem enough?
Was it me who inspite of giving everything to them couldn’t take it far?
Too many failed friendships made me question myself!
And amidst the noises in my head my heart whispered they were never really your friends!
And then I realised it was purely my destiny and fortune that bestowed me with only the best people in my life and kept removing the toxic ones so that one day all my efforts would be reciprocated and my friendships would last forever!