Hopes filled with doubts! 

The decisions she once made, were now blurry. 
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed. 
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game? 
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort. 
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be. 
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping. 

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An idle mind is a devil’s workshop 

2 years ago, after the roller coaster of career choices and gaining exposure;I just gave in! 

I used to adapt to any thing and used to start doing things in the best way possible! I used to take them as challenges but honestly ,how far would I get with that?! 

 

Almost 2 years ago, when I gave in and my female instincts and tantrums started playing with me (well hormones!) I stopped functioning!
I had a great “excuse” (which was then the world end for me) -my family issues! 

I was born over sensitive and hyper emotional; honestly even these adjectives are an understatement! (My best friend is going to have a crazy smile over this line!) 
And I didn’t really got out of it! Instead I got another excuse in my life… It was so worthless that even mentioning it is our waste of time! 
And that time when my best friend stood by me ;I acted deaf! ( I love you) 
But out of everything that we spoke of I think the biggest lesson learnt was:-

“An idle mind is a devil’s workshop!”


Seriously!!!!!!! Soon when things started hitting me hard and I got my old ‘I can do anything’ self back I started a bullshit ending spree!! Literally!!😂(It was fun,surprisingly)
I ended my stupid friendships,worthless conversations and over thinking.
I started working and I got so so busy that even when my heart popped out things, I was like dude I don’t have time for this!
My world became smaller and smaller but my mind became peaceful!
And when I met my best friend recently, she says, You know what ? You have changed? 

And I felt nothing but pride !!!! She also told me: “I told you ,when you will get busy you will eventually not care!”
She was right folks, so was my Big Brother!! 
When you keep your mind free, your heart takes the charge and it makes you do the crazy dumb thinking and trust me it is not healthy!!!! You spend years thinking and feeling in a way but when you grow up, when you become mature and enter the new phase those years’ old ideologies fail !! 

They are a waste!! 
So , honestly even if it’s a day and you got nothing just do something!

Go out, clean your room,read a book, start a new course or create something beautiful!

Because later in life,you won’t have these moments ! You won’t really have time to spare ! 

So just go out there and invest your time into some “thing” ( NOT PEOPLE )

You will thank yourself later
Don’t give your mind a break ; don’t let your heart take over.

Be busy, be beautiful and be YOU!! 
P.S Also we humans are weird and if once we get used to lazying and wasting time it’s difficult to get your butt up and work again!! Don’t let that happen over any issue (EXCUSE!)

Dear teen girl!

Dear girl,
I know it’s hard, I know you are not understanding anything which is going on around you and you feel like your world is shaking and breaking!
But sweetheart, it’s not ! Your world is just getting better and stronger! 
You are in the age where everyone around you seems wrong. 

You will start questioning your family, your career choices , your friends and even the love of your life.
But it’s okay! It’s a natural human process 

It’s a part of life! 

This is meant to be this way! If not now then some years later every girl faces this and it’s okay!
Don’t break down;don’t cry;don’t change

Stick to your roots,be yourself and just trust life. 

Few years later these sorrows won’t even be important to you! 

In fact it would make you realise that if it wasn’t for these sorrows you wouldn’t have been happy

And so you should not stress about it now!
You know while you are trying to cope up and live; you are pushing everyone away! There are few selected people who are taking your shit and pulling you back but slowly the number is going to reduce and in the end it’s going to be you.

Remember to care first for yourself and all the people who pulled you back!

Because not everyone will understand your journey and the ones who do should always be a priority to you!
Dear girl, these are all the steps that lead you to your destination and there is nothing abnormal happening with you ! You are just experiencing life! And you should make it worth a while! 
P.S. No matter what you should always wear the smile on your beautiful face!!