Hopes filled with doubts! 

The decisions she once made, were now blurry. 
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed. 
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game? 
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort. 
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be. 
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping. 

Some Nights Like These! 

On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers. 
I remember each of you who once said they love me

I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me 

I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been? 

Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own! 

Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore? 

Do you not remember me anymore? 

Do you care for me ? Do you love me? 

Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun. 

Friendship means Forever?

Friendship isn’t always about Forevers!!❤

We have always held this term with highest regard. There are millions of people who have left a mark by proving their eternal friendship. More than million quotes , books , plays have been written. And all this leads to one thing that kills human the most : Expectations!! 
Expectations of being perfect and most idealistic. 

But is it fair ? Is it okay to compare your individual equation with someone based on the hype that revolves around this term ?? Is it fair to define this term and bound it with your rules ?? Is it ?? 
We all have different friends : childhood friends , school friends , building friends , college friends , social media friends , good friends , time pass friends , whenever in need friends , 4 am friends , hanging out friends, family friends and BEST FRIENDS !!!! 
Yes the word itself holds a pool of expectations and idealism. Your best friend is supposed to be yours only. He/She has to share everything with you. Do whatever you tell them to. Be with you everytime you cry. Celebrate all your joys like their own. Hate the people you hate. And above all be with you FOREVER !! 

Why?? Is friendship about being ideal? Does it mean that no matter how special you were to them if they decide to drift away they are bad ? That if life changes them and their priorities don’t match yours they are bad ? That if your growth is hampered as a human in stage of life you still shouldn’t let go? Is friendship only about being the best version of idealism to someone ??? 
Friendship is a term in dictionary!! You add meaning and value to it by your own likes and dislikes in other person. Friendship is all about you and your friend . It’s not about the world !! If you both could make a difference in each other’s life but couldn’t last forever it means your definitions changed and that’s okay , Change is the only constant !
Remember we are all humans and we all have different destiny and most of the times we are parted away to solve the purpose of our life and that’s just okay. Don’t energise everything on terms ; focus more on your definitions and you shall always find meaning. 
Friendship is not about forevers it’s about letting yourself be the best version of YOU with or without them by your side. 

P.S. I know you had a rough patch recently and that it’s hard but you have got this , okay ?? I have been busy with stuff and couldn’t really write but take this as my token for what you achieved today 🙂 I am proud of you dear friend. Thank you for appreciating my writing , this one is just for you . Hope it helps you Define !! Be Wise !! Be You 🙂 

Special Dedication 

2016 was a year full of surprises to me ! While I finally cut down strings with some I got attached to some others 

This blog is going to talk about that one person who I encountered in 2016 and who made that year a little better for me 

I haven’t been posting since a long time and this day is perfect to mark new beginnings !! So here it goes:

We were teens when we first met; 

I was a teacher’s pet.

He came to me for college affairs ; 

I kept being nothing but fair 

Soon the ways fell apart ; 

And we both moved along different life paths 

And then one fine day he texts a hello

All I was doing was going with the flow 

And we exchanged numbers soon

I wasn’t ready to be-friend him that soon 

Few casual chats made us acquaintances 
I knew our friendship had those chances 

To my surprise he acted as a FAN 

Reminded me to take out my Pen 

Slowly we got to know each other 

All we kept doing was to tease each other

It’s today that he turns 22 

And I know there’s a special friendship brewing between us two 

I still wonder if it went by too fast

Or am I clinging to lessons of my past 

Our future doesn’t stand clear

I don’t care about it either 

So here’s wishing my fan a very happy birthday 

Hoping to see you some day 
I might not be perfect or all nice 

I can be too intimidating and not too wise;

I am a mess too hard to clean 

But I promise to be the shoulder you can lean 

Hey fanboy I don’t know if this explains it all well or that it went over your head !! All I wanted to say is thank you and a very happy birthday !!! 

P.S. (Because you like them ) I am looking forward to your jokes over this post too !!! Have a great day!! God bless! 

The Stranger’s Act!!❤️

The Connection!! 
How often do you meet people who are exactly like you?? 
Or well who would even think that there’s someone like you out there??!
I came across a person like that!! 
I met a guy just like me !! And it shocked me!! 
So apparently it was my 21st birthday a few days back and to my surprise I was not excited!!! I didn’t have that OMG moment!!! (I really grew up)
Me and my friend were heading back home , and then we see a guy with bright smile coming towards our cab 
We had to travel with him for 2 long hours. Being the extrovert I am I spoke to the driver and interacted with this guy a little 
Me and my friend had a plan to talk it all out because we had met after ages … 
But…. This guy had other plans !! He asks ,”So it’s your birthday?!” And I was like ,”Yeah” and he says,”We can at least sing a song for you!” 
And there he had it , I blushed and they including the driver started singing the birthday song !! 
They didn’t stop there ! That guy sang for me my favourite song too (P.S. he sucked at singing!! ) 
But like I keep saying it’s all about taking efforts !! 
We had crazy conversations ; We shared common interests; We shared common beliefs; We shared similarities. 
That 2 hour journey seemed like a 20 year old friendship. 
It’s surprising when you have a day made special by someone you never knew 
When you connect to a person who is just like you 
Sure I could have taken his number and then gotten in touch but hey, wouldn’t that kill the memory ??!
I don’t know if I will ever meet him again but he will remain too special for me !! I look at him as god’s gift to me on my birthday!!! (Too much?!) 
Such travel, such people and such moments gives you a hope that someone is out there for you and will come along just when needed!! 
So Wait ; Explore; Learn; Grow; HOPE!!!! 

P.S. Its been too long since my last blog but well work makes you busy, doesn’t it??
Stay blessed; Stay Beautiful!!!

I Love You Best Friend 

Today as my best friend turns 21!! I remember every moment that we have shared !! 

It started 8 years ago, when I suddenly wanted to be with her and she I don’t know why wanted to be with me!! So much so that she chose me over her friends. 

That’s how we kept growing !! 
We fought ! We made up!!
I cried and we patched up ! 

A journey seeming so short but experienced so deep 

In these 8 years I have admired her, I have hated her, I have been led down , I have been surprised , I was handled, I was loved , I was her priority (I still am) !,I was ; I am and I will be hers always !! 

There were times when I have acted like a kid 
There were times when I thought our friendship should probably end 

Then there were times when she meant nothing but the world to me !! 
I kept changing ; I kept growing but her LOVE was as pure always 
I remember setting high expectations and being sad 
But today baby I want to tell you how much I love you!!! 

I don’t care what’s happened I don’t care what would happen next but right now right here I know no other person would have loved me the way you have!!! 

8 years of friendship is what we have shared

It’s only about your happiness that I care

You became my mother and my father 
You loved me like no other 

I broke your heart
I questioned your love

I made you doubt 

I left you spell-bound 

I treated you like a family

I pampered you more than anybody 

I gave you all I had 

I loved you like mad

With all the ups and downs 

You knew how to straighten my frowns

No combination of 26 alphabets can describe us

And I am in love with us 

I wanna tell you SORRY I wanna tell you THANK YOU!! 

I wanna tell you I LOVE YOU!!

Happy birthday baby ❤️😘

Friendship Day!!

Being a hypersensitive and over emotional woman being,I had always given special days more importance than it deserved 
I used to plan for such days and birthdays months in advance 
I used to make sure that the person receiving all my love feels like he/she is the best that could ever happen to me 
But !! They never felt that ! Those cards,gifts , long messages, posts and everything else lived only for a day and after that kept dying in a closet. 
Did it make them feel the best ?! Certainly, NO 
When we do things we love; we expect others to view them that way too 

But it doesn’t work that way! 
If red means the colour of love to me ; it might mean violence to the other 
All these years I gave everything I had to receive exactly the same in return and obviously I never got it 
But instead I got some really important lessons ! 
So when I finally understood the meaning of “Friendship Day!” I stopped celebrating it 
It still tempts me to take efforts;to shower love but luckily my heart aches and I decide to look away!! 

Days aren’t meant to show the world what the other person means to you !! 
When you are crying hard and can’t even speak a word but your bestfriend holds the line and let’s you cry that’s when you should tell her, “I Love You!” 
I didn’t celebrate friendship day in fact I didn’t even remember it and that didn’t change a thing!!! 
It just made me feel peaceful! Peaceful than ever before!!!

P.S. Special thanks to a sweet friend who’s a fan of my blog to remind me about posting!! Just been busy pal! But it’s sweet of you 😉