Hopes filled with doubts! 

The decisions she once made, were now blurry. 
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed. 
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game? 
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort. 
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be. 
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping. 

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Some Nights Like These! 

On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers. 
I remember each of you who once said they love me

I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me 

I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been? 

Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own! 

Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore? 

Do you not remember me anymore? 

Do you care for me ? Do you love me? 

Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun. 

I Love You Best Friend 

Today as my best friend turns 21!! I remember every moment that we have shared !! 

It started 8 years ago, when I suddenly wanted to be with her and she I don’t know why wanted to be with me!! So much so that she chose me over her friends. 

That’s how we kept growing !! 
We fought ! We made up!!
I cried and we patched up ! 

A journey seeming so short but experienced so deep 

In these 8 years I have admired her, I have hated her, I have been led down , I have been surprised , I was handled, I was loved , I was her priority (I still am) !,I was ; I am and I will be hers always !! 

There were times when I have acted like a kid 
There were times when I thought our friendship should probably end 

Then there were times when she meant nothing but the world to me !! 
I kept changing ; I kept growing but her LOVE was as pure always 
I remember setting high expectations and being sad 
But today baby I want to tell you how much I love you!!! 

I don’t care what’s happened I don’t care what would happen next but right now right here I know no other person would have loved me the way you have!!! 

8 years of friendship is what we have shared

It’s only about your happiness that I care

You became my mother and my father 
You loved me like no other 

I broke your heart
I questioned your love

I made you doubt 

I left you spell-bound 

I treated you like a family

I pampered you more than anybody 

I gave you all I had 

I loved you like mad

With all the ups and downs 

You knew how to straighten my frowns

No combination of 26 alphabets can describe us

And I am in love with us 

I wanna tell you SORRY I wanna tell you THANK YOU!! 

I wanna tell you I LOVE YOU!!

Happy birthday baby ❤️😘

Friendship Day!!

Being a hypersensitive and over emotional woman being,I had always given special days more importance than it deserved 
I used to plan for such days and birthdays months in advance 
I used to make sure that the person receiving all my love feels like he/she is the best that could ever happen to me 
But !! They never felt that ! Those cards,gifts , long messages, posts and everything else lived only for a day and after that kept dying in a closet. 
Did it make them feel the best ?! Certainly, NO 
When we do things we love; we expect others to view them that way too 

But it doesn’t work that way! 
If red means the colour of love to me ; it might mean violence to the other 
All these years I gave everything I had to receive exactly the same in return and obviously I never got it 
But instead I got some really important lessons ! 
So when I finally understood the meaning of “Friendship Day!” I stopped celebrating it 
It still tempts me to take efforts;to shower love but luckily my heart aches and I decide to look away!! 

Days aren’t meant to show the world what the other person means to you !! 
When you are crying hard and can’t even speak a word but your bestfriend holds the line and let’s you cry that’s when you should tell her, “I Love You!” 
I didn’t celebrate friendship day in fact I didn’t even remember it and that didn’t change a thing!!! 
It just made me feel peaceful! Peaceful than ever before!!!

P.S. Special thanks to a sweet friend who’s a fan of my blog to remind me about posting!! Just been busy pal! But it’s sweet of you 😉 

An idle mind is a devil’s workshop 

2 years ago, after the roller coaster of career choices and gaining exposure;I just gave in! 

I used to adapt to any thing and used to start doing things in the best way possible! I used to take them as challenges but honestly ,how far would I get with that?! 

 

Almost 2 years ago, when I gave in and my female instincts and tantrums started playing with me (well hormones!) I stopped functioning!
I had a great “excuse” (which was then the world end for me) -my family issues! 

I was born over sensitive and hyper emotional; honestly even these adjectives are an understatement! (My best friend is going to have a crazy smile over this line!) 
And I didn’t really got out of it! Instead I got another excuse in my life… It was so worthless that even mentioning it is our waste of time! 
And that time when my best friend stood by me ;I acted deaf! ( I love you) 
But out of everything that we spoke of I think the biggest lesson learnt was:-

“An idle mind is a devil’s workshop!”


Seriously!!!!!!! Soon when things started hitting me hard and I got my old ‘I can do anything’ self back I started a bullshit ending spree!! Literally!!😂(It was fun,surprisingly)
I ended my stupid friendships,worthless conversations and over thinking.
I started working and I got so so busy that even when my heart popped out things, I was like dude I don’t have time for this!
My world became smaller and smaller but my mind became peaceful!
And when I met my best friend recently, she says, You know what ? You have changed? 

And I felt nothing but pride !!!! She also told me: “I told you ,when you will get busy you will eventually not care!”
She was right folks, so was my Big Brother!! 
When you keep your mind free, your heart takes the charge and it makes you do the crazy dumb thinking and trust me it is not healthy!!!! You spend years thinking and feeling in a way but when you grow up, when you become mature and enter the new phase those years’ old ideologies fail !! 

They are a waste!! 
So , honestly even if it’s a day and you got nothing just do something!

Go out, clean your room,read a book, start a new course or create something beautiful!

Because later in life,you won’t have these moments ! You won’t really have time to spare ! 

So just go out there and invest your time into some “thing” ( NOT PEOPLE )

You will thank yourself later
Don’t give your mind a break ; don’t let your heart take over.

Be busy, be beautiful and be YOU!! 
P.S Also we humans are weird and if once we get used to lazying and wasting time it’s difficult to get your butt up and work again!! Don’t let that happen over any issue (EXCUSE!)