Hopes filled with doubts! 

The decisions she once made, were now blurry. 
The people she waved goodbye, were now being missed. 
Was she ever wrong in choosing her self first or was it all about how the time played its game? 
Sitting in dark, she still wonders were they worth the effort. 
A little buzz on her phone reverts, baby nobody’s worthier than you and nobody would ever be. 
Alas, she fell asleep with her thoughts still mingling and heart still hoping. 

Some Nights Like These! 

On Nights like these, when loneliness knocks and emptiness whispers. 
I remember each of you who once said they love me

I remember each of you who decided to forever be here with me 

I remember each of you whom I once called mine
Where are you now? Where have you been? 

Do you miss me as much as I miss you or you found someone of your own! 

Do you blame me for not letting you in anymore? 

Do you not remember me anymore? 

Do you care for me ? Do you love me? 

Some Nights likes these when you realise its still not begun. 

Friendship means Forever?

Friendship isn’t always about Forevers!!❤

We have always held this term with highest regard. There are millions of people who have left a mark by proving their eternal friendship. More than million quotes , books , plays have been written. And all this leads to one thing that kills human the most : Expectations!! 
Expectations of being perfect and most idealistic. 

But is it fair ? Is it okay to compare your individual equation with someone based on the hype that revolves around this term ?? Is it fair to define this term and bound it with your rules ?? Is it ?? 
We all have different friends : childhood friends , school friends , building friends , college friends , social media friends , good friends , time pass friends , whenever in need friends , 4 am friends , hanging out friends, family friends and BEST FRIENDS !!!! 
Yes the word itself holds a pool of expectations and idealism. Your best friend is supposed to be yours only. He/She has to share everything with you. Do whatever you tell them to. Be with you everytime you cry. Celebrate all your joys like their own. Hate the people you hate. And above all be with you FOREVER !! 

Why?? Is friendship about being ideal? Does it mean that no matter how special you were to them if they decide to drift away they are bad ? That if life changes them and their priorities don’t match yours they are bad ? That if your growth is hampered as a human in stage of life you still shouldn’t let go? Is friendship only about being the best version of idealism to someone ??? 
Friendship is a term in dictionary!! You add meaning and value to it by your own likes and dislikes in other person. Friendship is all about you and your friend . It’s not about the world !! If you both could make a difference in each other’s life but couldn’t last forever it means your definitions changed and that’s okay , Change is the only constant !
Remember we are all humans and we all have different destiny and most of the times we are parted away to solve the purpose of our life and that’s just okay. Don’t energise everything on terms ; focus more on your definitions and you shall always find meaning. 
Friendship is not about forevers it’s about letting yourself be the best version of YOU with or without them by your side. 

P.S. I know you had a rough patch recently and that it’s hard but you have got this , okay ?? I have been busy with stuff and couldn’t really write but take this as my token for what you achieved today 🙂 I am proud of you dear friend. Thank you for appreciating my writing , this one is just for you . Hope it helps you Define !! Be Wise !! Be You 🙂 

I Love You Best Friend 

Today as my best friend turns 21!! I remember every moment that we have shared !! 

It started 8 years ago, when I suddenly wanted to be with her and she I don’t know why wanted to be with me!! So much so that she chose me over her friends. 

That’s how we kept growing !! 
We fought ! We made up!!
I cried and we patched up ! 

A journey seeming so short but experienced so deep 

In these 8 years I have admired her, I have hated her, I have been led down , I have been surprised , I was handled, I was loved , I was her priority (I still am) !,I was ; I am and I will be hers always !! 

There were times when I have acted like a kid 
There were times when I thought our friendship should probably end 

Then there were times when she meant nothing but the world to me !! 
I kept changing ; I kept growing but her LOVE was as pure always 
I remember setting high expectations and being sad 
But today baby I want to tell you how much I love you!!! 

I don’t care what’s happened I don’t care what would happen next but right now right here I know no other person would have loved me the way you have!!! 

8 years of friendship is what we have shared

It’s only about your happiness that I care

You became my mother and my father 
You loved me like no other 

I broke your heart
I questioned your love

I made you doubt 

I left you spell-bound 

I treated you like a family

I pampered you more than anybody 

I gave you all I had 

I loved you like mad

With all the ups and downs 

You knew how to straighten my frowns

No combination of 26 alphabets can describe us

And I am in love with us 

I wanna tell you SORRY I wanna tell you THANK YOU!! 

I wanna tell you I LOVE YOU!!

Happy birthday baby ❤️😘

Friendship Day!!

Being a hypersensitive and over emotional woman being,I had always given special days more importance than it deserved 
I used to plan for such days and birthdays months in advance 
I used to make sure that the person receiving all my love feels like he/she is the best that could ever happen to me 
But !! They never felt that ! Those cards,gifts , long messages, posts and everything else lived only for a day and after that kept dying in a closet. 
Did it make them feel the best ?! Certainly, NO 
When we do things we love; we expect others to view them that way too 

But it doesn’t work that way! 
If red means the colour of love to me ; it might mean violence to the other 
All these years I gave everything I had to receive exactly the same in return and obviously I never got it 
But instead I got some really important lessons ! 
So when I finally understood the meaning of “Friendship Day!” I stopped celebrating it 
It still tempts me to take efforts;to shower love but luckily my heart aches and I decide to look away!! 

Days aren’t meant to show the world what the other person means to you !! 
When you are crying hard and can’t even speak a word but your bestfriend holds the line and let’s you cry that’s when you should tell her, “I Love You!” 
I didn’t celebrate friendship day in fact I didn’t even remember it and that didn’t change a thing!!! 
It just made me feel peaceful! Peaceful than ever before!!!

P.S. Special thanks to a sweet friend who’s a fan of my blog to remind me about posting!! Just been busy pal! But it’s sweet of you 😉 

Friends Forever?

They were people who were supposed to be there forever;who promised to be a part of my wedding;who had planned vacations with me;who were going to cry hard when I died. 

What happened to them?

Did I change? 

Did they change? 

What became so important that every dream had to shatter ??

That every friendship had to fade??

As I was having these thoughts and flashbacks the love of my life enters with my best friend to show me how much I mean to them with a photo book of our wedding pictures and tickets to my favourite destination.
The dreams still existed, the dreams were being fulfilled too but the people changed.
Those people who were supposed to be till the end were actually the people who had to make me reach here unfortunately without them. 
People keep playing their roles and leave, don’t get your strings attached until it’s real.